"We stopped checking for monsters under our bed when we realized they were inside us."
(via modern-blog)
today is a great day! i’m not sure why (especially because i feel like shit and am coughing up a lung) but my mood is great. It’s beautiful out, I don’t have to work, and i get to see my fraans later! i dyed my hair and painted my nails today.. so i’ve been somewhat productive haha. I need to go to the library and try to get a card, and then to the pharmacy to get scripts i’ve been out of for a month (oops). i hope everyone else is having a good day :)
So I went to NYC this weekend. TOTALLY fun, but probs not the best for trying to eat healthy. I have terrible self control, and when good food presents itself I don’t usually say no. We walked enough to burn off a complete days worth of calories, but I feel like we ate more than we should have. I don’t regret it though. I had fun and enjoyed myself, and that’s all that matters. I just need to be more careful the rest of the week, and hopefully eating better will just become a habit and not a forced thing.
well, for the past two days I feel like I’ve eaten better. I’m going to the gym tomorrow (finally) and hopefully that will push me to do more. I NEED to get into better shape, not only for my health, but for my self confidence. Not that I’m overweight or anything, but I feel like I could be doing better than I am now. I just need to continue on and not give up like I usually do. This needs to be a lifestyle.
I need to start believing more in myself. If there’s something I want to do, then I should do it. I keep letting petty things weigh me down, and in effect keep me from my goals. I need to start trying harder for the things I want. If I want to lose weight, then I just need to do it. Stop saying it’s going to happen, while munching on a chocolate bar. It’s not going to happen unless I actually get up and work on it! If I want to study more, then I actually need to quit being lazy and study. Happiness comes from the things that make you feel good, and from doing things that you want to do, whether they’re tough or not. Some things may be tougher than others, sure. But I’m just going to continue feeling like crap unless I actually try to accomplish these things. Once I do, I know I’m going to feel amazing.
